Currently

It occurred to me the other day that I haven't written a post about me per se in a very long time. So time for an update on the current happenings of moi. 

Making: My nighttime smoothie. Well technically a protein shake. I drink one every morning and every night. I've been really trying to work on my health and fitness since the year began and this is just one of the things that became a part of my every day life. I literally ate my way through 2014 and packed on the pounds as a price for that. I am desperately trying to undo the damage.

Cooking: ... very healthy meals. First of all pats self on back for actually cooking. I ate takeout for the majority of 2014. Not kidding. I've eliminated gluten from my life since I found out I have a gluten intolerance. Its tough and I may slip here and there (theres no way Ill never eat pizza again) but for the most part its gone. Some days I am all pumped and love it. And other days well ... I feel for pizza.

Drinking: Lots of water ... and if we're being all technical, I'm drinking the protein shake I just made.

Action shot of the chocolate smoothie drinking

Reading: Im sure you're expecting me to name a novel or something. Nope, my brain is currently fried and these have taken up occupation on my bed. They have been my nightly reads for a couple nights now. Sometimes you just need Cosmo.


Wanting: Certain things in my life to go my way. Or to just work out. Relationship things. Oye Vey. I'm so not where I expected to be at this stage in my life and these days its bothering me more and more #adultprobs

Looking: Online and in stores for a dress to wear to a wedding in April. Its fast approaching and I legit have nada to wear. Nothing. 

Playing: Words with Friends with my sweet sister. Love her. 

Wishing: I could vent and blog more about the relationship things I mentioned earlier. But I censor myself for fear of who is reading. Or will one day read. Also, after the mess of my last relationship that I thought would last for all eternity, that I spent the majority of my twenties nurturing only to have it fail, I have a genuine fear of speaking about relationships openly only to admit defeat soon after. Silly of me? Maybe. But the last one crushed me.

Writing: My Thesis. Oh how I wish I could sit right now and put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) and work on my novel, but my thesis is due in May and I have a demanding supervisor. Le sigh.

Enjoying: The little things in life that make me smile. Waking up to a sweet text, juicy apples, the sound of the rain on my roof, the birds nest that a mama bird built outside my back door, my plants, yoga and my new yoga mat. 

Wondering: Where my hair tie is... random but Ive been looking for it for a hot minute. #reallife

Loving: My plants and how cute they look! And the fact that I have not killed them yet. This green one even grew since the last time I showed it!


Hoping: For things to get a LOT better this year and for my positive attitude to return. I'm in a slump these days and anyone who knows me will tell you I was a VERY confident and positive person growing up. Positive to a fault. Im hoping for some of that positivity to return. I wasn't built to be a Debbie Downer. As Kristen pointed out, we have to be kind to ourselves and so I'm also hoping to do  that this year. 

Thinking: about going for a run ... but its late at night and I don't have a treadmill. If I lived in a bustling city, I would totally open my doors and hit the pavements right now. No joke. 

Have a great Tuesday guys!!

35 comments:

  1. I hear you on (not) blogging about relationships. Sometimes, I think about creating another, maybe anonymous, maybe subscription only blog, just so I could talk about some of the other things in my life.
    But then I turn to my journal and write it for my eyes only.

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    1. Ugh blogging about relationships is super hard! Journals for the win!! haha

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  2. Dang girl! Look at you being all healthy... I need to do that! And I agree about the not blogging about relationships thing. You just never know these days!

    <3, Pamela
    Sequins & Sea Breezes

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  3. Hope this year is much better for you. It is hard being healthy 100% of the time. Hope the relationship works out. I know that struggle.

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  4. Way to go on cooking healthy meals! That can be SUCH a challenge! I totally understand sometimes you just need to read Cosmo or whatever, it doesn't always have to be a novel! And totally understand not wanting to blog about relationships, it makes perfect sense!

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  5. Chocolate smoothie?! Tell me more!
    I don't blame you at all for being hesitant to bring up new relationships. I'm definitely like that with any type of new situation...it's hard to not be excited about the possibilities, but I also have to take some time to feel it out and see where it's really going.
    Hope you get a good run in soon :)

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  6. girrrrl work it. these changes no matter big or small - healthy eating/drinking etc - are your stepping stones to a healthier you! YOU WILL DO IT! the need is there, the want is there and you are doing all the right things. blog about it so i can read...i love journeys like this! xoxoxo

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  7. i feel you on that thesis. i have written two and that was two too many. never again! but you'll make it.

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  8. I think you just convinced me I need to add some real plants to our home!! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  9. I too would like to be more open about relationship stuff. It is definitely not all rainbows and sunshine but I have a fear of being open because I don't want to open it up to others and then be crucified for sharing real life. I still might share because I think it can be helpful to other people. I usually am more open to sharing things after I have moved on from it. Maybe you could start by sharing more about what happened in your past relationship which could open you up to what you are experiencing now.

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  10. I read what you are currently wishing and i totally hear ya. It took so much to post the post i did today especially since I don't talk about that much personal stuff on my site. You should just write about it if it makes you feel better. You don't have to go into great detail but just mention it. It could help =)

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  11. I completely censor what I write too - you never know who is reading, and that totally freaks me out! I hope your relationship things work out :)

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  12. It sounds like you are taking care of yourself physically, now just take care of yourself mentally AND emotionally. If you're not getting what you want, go get it! I want your relationship to work for the best too but I also want for you to not sacrifice yourself. And I mean that for every relationship whether it's family, friends, boys, pets, plants, etc. :)

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  13. I know how you feel about not venting on blog just because WHAT IF (s) so there's this app I found named Vent and you can vent anonymously and there are thousands of strangers venting their emotions and goddammit it's too good and I love it!

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  14. good for you for being all healthy girlfriend :) i have been eating my way through life the last few months and it's getting a bit ridiculous lol. i don't run in the dark either, i feel you. wish i had a treadmill! when i lived in sydney, even in the suburbs, i felt safe running at night if i stayed on busyish roads-not here!
    i'm sorry you can't vent properly girly. if you ever need an ear, i'm here ;) i love this so much 'I wasn't built to be a Debbie Downer' hells no you weren't. you gotta love yourself as much as i do ;)

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  15. Oh adult problems. Such an old hag of a bitch, aren't they!? You're so amazing with writing a thesis, working all day, taking amazing care of yourself, killing it in the kitchen, nurturing relationships and STILL having time to blog and share with us all that is going on. You are so motivated and you make me want to be more positive. You've been through a lot of what I'm just getting used to and I want you to know that I'm here for you like you've been there for me :)

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  16. There are large parts of relationships I've kept off the blog. I don't blame you. I lose hair ties like no one's business. For real I had TWO in my hair the other night when I went to bed & when I woke up & shook my hair I heard them fly but have no idea where they landed. Luckily I had found a stash a couple days prior or I would've been out.

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  17. Look at you being all healthy!!! I am really trying to get there. My relationship with food is super complicated as well. Like I love it more than I should haha. As far as talking about relationships online, I totally get what you are saying. Sometimes it feels good to vent it out though, even if you are just writing it in a word doc to yourself.

    I have a huge post on indoor plants that I am cooking up. I cant wait to get some around my house!! And I completely agree with Kristen, we must be kind to ourselves.

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  18. Girl, I've been in a relationship with food and I just cannot stop girl lol. I absolutely loved reading this Kay.

    Kay of Pure & Complex
    www.purecomplex.com

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    1. Thank you!! I love food sooo much so some days its not the easiest to eat healthy!

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  19. I love all the awesome healthy strides you've been making over the last couple months and am proud of you for sticking with something you wanted to do! Sorry to hear about relationship woes. Hopefully the clouds will clear soon. <3

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  20. Enjoying the little things is always the best. Cheers to drinking a lot of water!

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  21. I have been on the hunt for a dress to wear to a bridal shower in April and also have nothing! Have you tried Rent the Runway?

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  22. Hooray for smoothies. They're such a good way to sneak in fruits &/or veggies. I need to obtain some sort of protein powder though.

    :] // ▲ itsCarmen.com ▲

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    1. Smoothies are my go to breakfast!!

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  23. Yes to the magazines! Sometimes you need to read something light.

    Good work on the healthy habits and the cooking at home. I struggled when I first started cooking all the time because take out is so much easier but eventually, it's just second nature. And it's fun (mostly)!

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  24. This is a wonderful post! Thanks so much for sharing, I really enjoyed learning a bit more about you since I read your blog so often :) I do have a question, though - how did you find out that you have a gluten intolerance? I think that I may have one, but I don't know for sure.

    xo, Dolce // http://www.mydailysweet.com/
    Leave me a comment; I'm always looking for new blogs to follow!

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  25. I know how you feel! I sometime want to share more than I should lol
    Melanie @ meandmr.com

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  26. I hope your relationship things work out, and I hope that you are able to get back to normal. I hate when things just feel off or I don't feel like myself. Also, good luck with your thesis!!!!

    Tif
    www.brightonabudget.com

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  27. I hear you about keeping relationships off, I think that is a really good mood. You really never know who exactly is reading. For various reasons, I keep alot of personal things off my blog. For me, it is best but everyone is different. You have to think of yourself first.
    Girl, I love reading magazines. I just love going to the bookstore, getting a cup of coffee and read magazines for hours at a time. Lol.

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  28. Those plants! So cute! And I found gluten free pizza crust on Pinterest that was actually about as good as the real thing!! And look at you with protein shakes twice a day - I see you, Kay!

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  29. Great job on your plant! Its so cute! I knew you could do it!

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  30. I think you're wise to censor your own blogging. Not all of our thoughts need to be Google-searchable. :) Hopefully you have some good friends or family--someone you can vent to in real life! Otherwise, there's always talking to yourself...I've been known to do that on occasion...

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