July 27, 2015
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A Bundle of Thoughts {aka Life Lately}

Oh boy, its been a while since I came on my blog and just wrote. Its so refreshing to just write - one of the very best feelings. When I fell in love with reading blogs and dreamt of starting my own, it was because I liked reading about other's lives. Lately blogging seems a little less about writing and life updates and more about blogging about being successful blogging. No shade just facts. And while there is a place for Pinterest-y posts,  tips and tricks, and the 'new' type of blogging, I have to remind myself that this space started as an outlet to write my thoughts, and that maybe once in a while I should actually yanno ... write.

SO life updates are in order me thinks...

the kay times

Work - I started a new job on July 1st and with the exception of one horrifying picture that was taken of me last week, that doesnt even look like me and that will appear in official firm stuff - I love it. Its tough, but I do love it and its the number 1 reason that I can't seem to get my blogging ish together. I don't speak about work much and Ill continue not to in any great detail, but I will say this - I am a commercial litigation attorney - and in my day to day life that defines me. I generally get to work just after 7 and between 5 and 6 pm and I sometimes take work home. Yup essentially, I wear black suits and high heels daily - and people actually take me seriously when I speak. Sidenote - I sometimes want to laugh at how seriously people take me actually since 99.9% of the time I'm a certified clown. My point is ... I have a stressful career that I absolutely love, but sometimes I have no time to do other things I love.

Oh and I also tutor at a University - there's that.

Travel - it's no secret around these parts that I love to travel. Whelp, my travel plans this year got all out of whack with the advent of my new job. This weekend I booked a ticket for my mum to head to Virginia for two weeks. I was supposed to be going on that trip too. But I'm not. I guess its ok since next year there will be tons of travel and hopefully I can slip out of the country for a long weekend before this years' end but for now ... I'm bummed I'm missing this trip.

Relationship - I rarely talk about my personal life on the blog because I am generally a pretty private person (a private blogger ... the irony isn't lost on me). But this part of my life is, at the moment, C O M P L I C A T E D (yup that's complicated in bold, italics, underlined, capitalized and spaced for emphasis)... and so guess what - 'till its all figured out and settled, it'll stay off the blog since, you know, words posted on the web remain for time immemorial.  If you're really curious, ask. Pointless life update for the win.

Birthday - Next month is my birthday and I have the getting older blues. Ill be 30 and I spend most of age 29 mourning the loss of my 20's and thinking about 30. Sigh. I don't feel 30, and I most certainly don't look it with my short self, but the realization that I'm not exactly where I thought I'd be at this age is grounding. While my career is exactly where I want it (and I do mean exactly - and for that I am grateful), my personal life needs work  - I have no kids, I don't yet own my own home (hopefully next year though - for the home) and #manprobs. There's just ... so many of the things I expected to do and have at 30 are not in place just quite yet. On the flip side, there are times when I can make decisions to get things exactly where I want them and I chicken out. I then think, do I only want these things right now because I think this is what I should want? Should I settle (not necessarily relationship-wise but life wise) just to have the things I want faster? #thefeels. I'm hoping 30 is a good year though - I could use a good year - I'm aiming, praying and dreaming for a good year.

Blog - Sometimes I have big dreams for my blog and then I go missing for a week when work kicks me in the tush. I then wonder if those dreams are unrealistic since I barely have time now to spend time on my baby and most days I feel too drained to even think about writing a post. Also there's the fact that I don't post Pinterest worthy "blogging about blogging" or fashion posts. Still, a girl can dream. Maybe I'll start small, once again posting at least 3 times a week. Gathering my ideas for posts and actually writing them - on a weekend - when I have more time. I guess we shall see.

I'm a big dreamer and I guess I always will be. There's a common theme throughout this thread and that's the fact that I dream a lot. I have big dreams and goals for life and quite often when I put my mind to achieving something ... I don't stop until I do. For example - I now work at the first firm I applied to out of law school because of persistence and sheer dang determination. I tutor two College courses and I manage to still have a pretty excellent social life ... and like I mentioned, a complicated personal one AND still ... I keep dreaming. I dream for that one day family, for the house that will turn into a home, for a good 30th year, for more travel, for a good blog and for my career to be ever growing and that's basically where my head is at these days. I'm going to try to be it all and do it all because frankly, I know no other way. For the record - I think everyone should have big dreams for whatever they do and put effort into. My mum always told me "Always aim for the A, if you fall short you'll get a B ... but if you aim for a B and fall short you'll get a C" - its what I do every day. 

So there you go - a pretty wordy life update that didn't really say all that much and was kinda all over the place. If you are skimming - the synopsis is that life is good and I keep dreaming for it to get better - oh and next month I'll be officially old. 

If you've read all of my rambles, you deserve a medal, or at the very least a thank you, for sticking around even when I suck at blogging because work is stressful, or when I don't respond to comments on time. Thank you for still reading and listening to the rants of 'lil ole me. 

Have a wonderful Monday!!!

39 comments:

  1. Glad you're loving the job--how much you enjoy your work really makes an impact on quality of life. I don't think I'd enjoy a job where I had to be extremely serious most of the time. I love teaching because for me, so much of it is clowning around in the name of hopefully making abstract linguistic concepts way more memorable and interesting so that they stick in the kids heads. That's why its my perfect job.
    I bet your 30s are going to be awesome. Different things come at different times of life for different people. For me, I found a great guy early in life, but it took some floundering and a few different directions (including a year spent earning a cosmetology license...( before I actually found a job that is good for me. I wish that would have come faster or that I would have had the idea of teaching earlier on in life...but oh well!

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  2. Not blogging because you're busy living life is the best reason. It's been happening to me this summer too.
    I hope the relationship complications get resolved soon. And remember all your plans won't work out right away. Which is good, otherwise you couldnt work on being patient. Just gotta keep working towards them

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    1. Thanks girlie!! Life really is busy these days ...
      I sure hope the complications resolve soon as well haha

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  3. http://www.enriqueiglesias.com/profiles/blogs/survive-the-end-days-pdf-reviewFinally, the time has come for that great summer camping adventure or that backpacking trip abroad! Soon you will be facing a golden sun, a gentle breeze will caress your calves and you will ready for the adventure that is there and ready to pounce on the world's roads

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  4. blogging will always take a backseat to life! i love it but at the same time, who wants to sit in front of a computer when there are drinks to be drank, conversations to be had and life to live?

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  5. *Sigh* I'm so happy I stumbled upon your blog just a few short weeks ago. Your honesty is so refreshing :) I feel you especially on the blogging front. I literally do not have the time to devote to what I like to refer to as "pimping" my blog. But then again, that's not really my style anyway. I constantly have to remind myself to just write what I want to write and not let the fact that I'm not gaining any new followers bother me. The reality is, there is no magic number of followers, or comments, etc that would make me feel validated, so I need to do me!

    That was a little heavy for a Monday morning, but I just wanted to say- I feel ya! :)

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  6. We are feeling the same way! I just came back and posted today after being gone for so long. I have missed you and your blog. I have missed everyone's blog that I used to stay up with on a regular basis. I needed a break and I am glad to be back and see your face! I've missed you!

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  7. Oh goodness. 30 is not remotely old. 30 is just getting the hang of adult life and it gets better from there. I hear you on the blogging dreams! LOL. Getting mine would come at a cost or sacrifice I'm not willing to make so I'm just trying to enjoy the journey!
    Gina | On the Daily Express

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  8. Don't mourn your 20's to much, your 30's are awesome! You'll feel comfortable in your decisions and your skin, I wish I had know this me from my 30's years ago. She is awesome!

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  9. you are not old! age is just a number. but i feel you. screw what you think you should be doing or where you should be, what matters is if you are happy. i hope 30 is a great year with lots of good relationships, travel, and all sorts of fun stuff. you deserve it!

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  11. So happy to hear that you are loving your new job. It's so important to be happy at work, we spend so much time there. Don't mourn your 20's, your 30's will be even better!! It's ok if life gets in the way of blogging. It happens to all of us. I'm sure you will find a good balance, it just takes time.

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  12. Read every word and now I have a lengthy comment. :)

    Explain these #manprobs por favor.

    I can completely relate about not being where you thought you'd be. I AM 30 and feel this way often - I'm unmarried, in a relationship I'm on the fence about, not in the right career, no home, no car and continuously saying "where did I go wrong?" BUT I'm doing a lot better at realizing I'm where I'm SUPPOSED to be. I was meant to be where I am, at this time, for whatever reason.

    As for 30. It's been an amazing year for me. I looked forward to 30 probably since 25. I just knew it would be better, and it has been. Dream and believe yours into existence.

    Finding blog balance seems like a cyclical problem. One month I'm so on my game and the next I'm a disaster and barely post anything of substance. I envy those who post read-worthy content daily - I know that's not something I'm able to do.

    You'll get and be where you want. Just keep dreaming :)

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  13. I feel the same about blogging. I want to, I really do, and then... appellate briefs. Maybe it's just not possible to pour that much effort into these little online spaces when we have such demanding jobs? Obviously I need to write ahead and prioritize my time, but you spend 8 hours staring at a stupid index on your computer screen and the last thing you want to do when you get home is look at another screen. It's tough.
    30 is pretty cool. I turned 30 last November. I'm kind of more freaked about 31 this November, I don't know why that seems so different. But I like being 30, it's like I'm officially a grown up or something. But I still get carded for alcohol, so that makes me feel better ;)

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  14. Sounds like your kicking butt and taking names at work!! That's really awesome! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  15. glad you love your new job :) blogging has changed so much over the past few years and I agree most blogs are very pinteresty. to be honest I don't mind some pinteresty blogs but my favourites are the ones that have some substance and soul to them - blogs that are a real peak into another person's life.

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  16. also 30s aren't so bad - they're pretty fun actually ;)

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  17. I love life update posts!!!! It is why I blog! I am so glad that you are happy with your new job. Since work is where we spend most of our time, it is important to at least like it a little! And girl, complicated relationships. Sigh. Just know I am sending you hugs. The hole dating/'relationship thing can be so hard. So hard. But let me tell you one thing, don't you ever settle because you feel like you have to because of your age!!! You deserve so much happiness, so dream and reach for those things. I am going to be 32 in less than a month and I am no where near where I thought I was going to be career wise at this point. I am still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up! I have big dreams that I am not sure how to make reality. But you know what, that is ok. We cant plan out our whole lives and expect it all to fall in place. There are so many things I want now that I didn't know I wanted when I was in my 20's. And that is so awesome. To keep growing, changing, evolving.

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  18. Blah I was nodding and mm-hmming the whole way through this. I am in a place too where work is life and trying to figure out what this means for blogging??

    Exciting about the new job though!!

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  19. I'm glad your new job is going well.

    I remember panicking when I turned 30, but it turned out to be okay.

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  20. I am quite a bit older and my life still isn't where i thought it would be. I guess such is the breaks but I feel your pain either way. Keep the faith.

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  21. I don't know if anyone's life turns out how they expected. Honestly, when I was a teenager, I thought I'd have kids in my early 20s and now I'm 28 and can't imagine having that responsibility yet. It's too soon! Life's definitely not as much of a straight shoot as we think when we're younger - especially personal life, since usually a big chunk of that depends on another human being. But at least you've got career stuff figured out! That's more than I can say for myself or most of my friends.

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  22. Prayers, hopes and a big fat cheers to 30 and a wonderful year next year girl! 30 will look damn good on you and your 30s are going to be the start of more new and exciting things in your life. I can't wait to see what else is in store for you (like a prince, yacht, new home... or even just a little less stress at work for starters hah). Love you!

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  23. Trust me the 30s feel just as good, and it matters how you feel!

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  24. That whole birthday section is my entire life. Seriously. Why didn't anyone tell girl-Megan that having a "timeline" was stupid and that it wouldn't come true, evvvvarrrr???

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  25. Congrats on the new job!

    And I've loved my 30's :)

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  26. I know work is crazy busy for you but it is SO awesome that you really love your job. Seriously, (sadly) not a lot of people can say the same!
    I hope 30 is your best year yet! I'm only a couple years behind you and I don't have a lot of those things either, nor do I think I will for a while. All in good time, friend!

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  27. Sorry about the vacation but I'm glad that you're loving the new job! Happy almost birthday month! I'm 3 months short of 27 & the thought of 27 is hurting a lot more than the idea of being 30. Weird I know. I follow a variety of blogs but the majority are definitely like yours. They just feel more real & a lot less staged.

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  28. Your 30's will be great :) And sometimes you just need a break, even if it isn't planned. Go with it!

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  29. You're right. You don't look 30. Then again, what is 30 supposed to look like anyway? I think this notion of where we're "supposed" to be and what we are "supposed" to look like has evolved anyway. I'm 42. 42?!?! When I used to think of 42, it looked a whole lot different than it does to me now. I think you're career and educational achievements are fabulous and an accomplishment that I didn't achieve. I'm not jealous. I'm in awe.

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  30. There's a few things I wanted to comment on but it'll get me distracted wheat I do want to say is the upcoming birthday. It's a big one. I must be honest since I turned 25 I have such anxiety approaching my birthday because I keep pushing myself or shouting at myself for not being " where I was supposed to be" and I'm not going to lie I probably think about that at least three times a day but I'm trying really hard to just be at peace with whatever is meant to be will be on God's time but accepting that is a challenge. There's all these articles on what you should have learnt in your 20s or why 30s define you and I think it's mostly bullshit. Every one of us have our own paths and destinies to follow.. best of luck to you as you enter a new pathway *mini rant over* xxx

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  31. Girl whatever you are not old! I'm 32, and so far my 30's are my favorite! Totally understand about feeling like you're not where you thought you would be though! I always thought I would have at least a couple of kids by now, but we have none. And while I like my job it's not a "career" thing for me and my dream job seems kind of impossible to attain right now. But we will just keep dreaming and working, like you said!

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  32. In complete agreement about the new trend in blogging. I flat-out just don't read posts about what I *should be* doing to *make my blog better* because I don't care what someone else thinks I should spend all my time and money on. I got otha things ta do. Anyway. Always appreciate the life updates and glad to hear work is going well mostly. I wish everything were always amazing and of course I wish you were making a trip to my country and we could plan a meet-up or something, but alas... :( Next time my friend. Oh and by the way... you are going to ROCK 30 :)

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  33. Believe it or not, I completely understand being private on a blog. I think with everything, whether you're an owner of a blog or a business, there is a line of privacy that needs to stay just that. I have a line, that I do not cross as a blogger, and I keep it that way. Also, some bloggers aren't natural writers, so they do other things to compensate. But blogging used to be all about writing, so I get what you're saying. Great post.

    Kia / House of KTS
    www.houseofkts.com

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    1. Thanks girlie!! And yes being private and blogging is a conundrum but I try. Cant put it all out there!

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  34. You know, I used to have rules about how I'd run my blog...but then realized that was taking the joy out of it for me. Sure I will never probably grow my following as a result, but I really don't care. Now I write when I have something I want to talk about and when I have the time. It's hard to get those two elements aligned...but at least I don't feel so guilty about not posting 5 days a week.

    And, you can always adapt my philosophy: I will be 28 until I no longer can pull off that age. I lie so much that when I have to tell people my real age, I have to pause and do math. Sad.

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  35. I love these kinds of posts that gives a glimpse into other blogger's life.

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    1. I love reading about others lives as well. Glad you liked it! :)

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  36. Blogging will never be about how to blog for me. I hate it and barely read it so I definitely won't write about it.

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